malduke

malduke @ 2008-12-07T19:24:00

2008-12-08T00:25:24Z

happy 2 year hon :(

malduke @ 2008-12-07T17:33:00

2008-12-07T22:34:31Z

it took everything i had not to break down and cry at work today

malduke @ 2008-12-06T22:24:00

2008-12-07T03:25:41Z

in bed you have the number if you want to talk

malduke @ 2008-12-06T15:09:00

2008-12-06T20:11:35Z

wow been a long time, all i have to say is at this point im ready to give up im sick of the same shit, and im sick of people talking about me behind my back, fuck you all and goodnight, you dont want me around i dont want to be around

i was hoping for batman

2007-02-21T19:07:57Z

but this will do

You scored as Indiana Jones. Indiana Jones is an archaeologist/adventurer with an unquenchable love for danger and excitement. He travels the globe in search of historical relics. He loves travel, excitement, and a good archaeological discovery. He hates Nazis and snakes, perhaps to the same degree. He always brings along his trusty whip and fedora. He's tough, cool, and dedicated. He relies on both brains and brawn to get him out of trouble and into it.

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Indiana Jones

88%

Captain Jack Sparrow

83%

Neo, the "One"

75%

Maximus

67%

Batman, the Dark Knight

67%

James Bond, Agent 007

67%

The Amazing Spider-Man

58%

William Wallace

58%

Lara Croft

58%

El Zorro

42%

The Terminator

33%

Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0
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lol fucking awesome

2007-01-25T21:56:17Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=exDo2SMdB-0&eurl=

S.P.D EMERGENCY!!

2006-12-07T07:57:32Z

just got my christmas present from scott and its awesome, i think im gonna have a lot of fun with this

i swear somedays im the only one who works there

2006-11-29T19:23:34Z

well i think the subject line says it all...

2 days in a row now its fallen on my shoulders to keep that fucking store in running order, 2 days that i have had to take on the workload of 3 or 4 people and have been expected to get it done in no time...

this job is killing me liz gave me a half hour long massage last night to kill all the knots in my back and today they are back just as bad if not worse...

i cant wait till my next review i am gonna rip some people apart if i dont get what i feel i deserve, either way im gonna have a fewe words to say...

holidays there this year are gonna suck i know it

malduke @ 2006-11-14T03:45:00

2006-11-14T03:45:13Z

I will answer the wind
I will leave with the tide
I’ll be out on the road
Every chance I can ride

No matter how far
No matter how free
I’ll be alone
If you’ll wait for me

There’ll be times when I’ll rise
There’ll be times when I’ll fall
There’ll be times when its best to say nothing at all

Knowing you’re right
Letting it be
I’ll be around
If you’ll wait for me
If you’ll wait for me

And I’ll fight for the right to go over the hill
If it’ll only mean something to me
I will not be persuaded
I wont be still
I’ll find a way to be free

In the cool of the night
In the heat of the day
If you’re ever in doubt
I’ll be on my way
Straight to your side
I guarantee
I’ll be around
If you’ll wait for me
If you’ll wait for me

malduke @ 2006-11-10T06:12:00

2006-11-10T06:12:04Z

so i havnt left my house in over 24 hours ive spent most of the time in my room playing ff12, i like some of it and i dont like some of it

ive completly reverted to my middle school self, sitting alone all day playing video games and i dont care.

i think i live to work now, thats about all i really do well.

maybe i should go full time at tjs i practically run my store as it is, im so sick of retail. asshole customers, a platoon of new rookies, me doing most of the work in the store. im so sick of it.

work and video games thats my life now.

meh what do i care its a living

my decision

2006-11-08T04:55:42Z

as some or all of you may know ive been dealing with a shitload of conflicting emotions recently and ive come to a decision...

fuck relationships, fuck love, ill never find happiness looking to get it from someone else...

it was foolish of me to think i could overcome destiny, this is mine

there are 2 types of people lovers and fighters...

i think we all know which one i am...

that being said i once again realize that i am not meant to have anyone to love i am meant for the battlefield...

"burning fires burning lives down the long distant roads, through the lost mountains endless so far away from home, WARRIORS SOLDIERS FOREVER we fought long ago WEER ALL LOST IN THE DARKNESS SO FAR AWAY FROM HOME"

wanting love made me weak, finding it made me weaker, losing it all but killed me simple problem simple solution...

remove the element that causes weakness...

"im irish we never change anything we just keep going on like nothing is wrong"

always wondered why im like that apparently its the stubborn mick in me

malduke @ 2006-11-07T04:10:00

2006-11-07T04:10:01Z

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens ev'ry day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the settin sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin comes
I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
Hmm, hmm, hmm,...
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah!

malduke @ 2006-11-06T03:50:00

2006-11-06T03:50:50Z

When all else fails ill have trust and faith in one thing above all else...

my proud fist

what is love?

2006-10-17T05:32:40Z

i used to think i knew what it is, i even had i once...

i want a family and i want kids...

but do i want love i just dont know any more...

i see happy couples everywhere, at work, with friends, even here at home...

but the sick part is i look at the inevitable end, either way it must end either by break up or death...

i think too much, i work too much, and i dont live enough...

"Ohhh once in a lifetime take a chance at the right time the glory to see"

but how will i know when its the right time to take a chance i mean you all know im not really that good a gambler...

the chips are down and i dont know if my 3 of a kind is a good enough hand to pull the trigger, is it time to go all in or to lay it down and cut my losses...

and do i even care, i fucking hate being human sometimes, damn conflicting emotions...

do i need love, or do i just want it...

i ask myself that question everyday cause i know i cant handle something like ehat i went through with julie again...

big tough guy eh, some ultimate badass, yeah im great in a fight but im terrible in love...

maybe i was right, perhaps im meant to protect and fight and to only love from a distance so others can be happy, that would be worth it...

my own happiness is inconsequential i now live to serve others maybe then i can find peace

what it means to be a guardian

2006-10-14T19:19:35Z

since my very early childhood i have known it was my place to protect those around me, i am a guardian. Now most people dont fully understand what it means to be a guardian. Its not just shielding them from physical harm, its also aiding them in timesa of mental or emotional turbulance. So i would like to say right now anyone reading this has my ear any time they need it as well as my sword. Till they day i die it is my duty to save those who need it. Hell the name William comes from old english meaning "willing protector" i was born into this role and i am proud to be one of the many who give all for others.

That being said i now have a new mission, i must find the one who needs me and help them to achieve happiness. I dont know who it is yet but i have the feeling i will soon.

the true me is back in full force the warrior hath ruturned

2006-10-11T07:00:09Z

On a cold dark winter night, hidden by the stormy light
A battle rages for the right, for what will become
In the valley of the damned, a warrior with sword in hand
Travels fast across the land, for freedom he rides

And the sign from the master on high
He screams aloud and across, hear the cry
For the kingdom of fire and ice
And the power to be alive

Be strong ride on, carry on through the war
Come along carry on, living for ever more

On the wings of death, by the hands of doom
By the darkest light, from the darkest moon
Crossing silent seas, over mountains high
For we stand as one tonight

(Chorus)
On the black wind forever we ride on together
Destroying your evil with freedom our guide
When the master will storm us
He stands high before us
Our hearts filled with splendour
Our swords will shine over the light

In the valley of the damned
Day breaks with golden strand
Over pastures green it glows
To where night returns

In the shadows faces appear
Warriors wearing full metal gear
Join together one and all before the glorious light
Rise up, gather round, come and hear what is said
Use your senses open your mind don't you ever forget

On the wings of life, by the hands of hope
By the brightest light from the brightest sun
Crossing silent seas over mountains high
To the valley of the damned!

(Chorus x3)

just a story idea ive been working on first draft of crap

2006-10-09T21:13:33Z

As he sat there in the tavern, he was staring at nothing but the level of the mead in front of him. It was almost as if the alcohol reflected his past and his memories the more he looked into it. Everyone knew him, they had all heard the stories of the sole survivor of the battle of Enguard. Five years have passed since then, five years of nightmares and alcoholism. He was once known as the greatest warrior in the world, hed never lost a battle. Sure hed been injured in his travels his body now stiff and sore with arthritis, his flesh covered in scars, but he didnt care he just wanted the nightmares to end. Five years have passed since he strode out of that blood soaked wasteland the only man alive, and on that day he vowed to lay down his sword. He swore that hed never kill again...

He sat in the tavern drinking himself oblivious every night, once a great wealthy man now just a piss poor drunk trying to forget. He finished his drink and ordered another, the man serving him knew better than to cut him off, the last time he had nearly lost his right arm. This was how he spent his days now, drinking to forget. He tried to ignore the whispers of the others in the room, "Thats him he is the butcher of Enguard." "Really? He sure dont look like some great warrior, just another drunk ha ha ha.". He had given up, without battles to fight he lost all purpose or drive, and he didnt care all he wanted was to drink himself to oblivion. He vowed not to fight, he was gonna keep his word.

But fate has a funny way of making a man break his vows...

"RUN! EVERYBODY RUN! ITS GRANDAR THE MERCILESS!" A shouting voiced shattered the peacefull silence of the night. It wasnt uncommon for brigands and thugs to come through town looking for rest or a drink, but this night one particular lowlife chose the wrong tavern and the wrong girl...

CRASH!!! the doors flung open and in walked a man in black armor holding a young girl by the throat. "You there, yes i know who you are Butcher Of Enguard im sick of hearing the tales of the "greatest warrior ever" i will prove once and for all that you are nothing copared to me the great Grandar of Boheim". The man at the bar just continued drinking he wasnt interested in this over-confidant fool. "Hey im talking to you filth you will fight me or the girl will die.". "Whatever i dont even know her kill her for all i care." he slurred out "Im done fighting this is my life now please leave me be."

Just then the bartender recognized the girl as the maiden from the shrine at the south end of town "Look at her if you dont do something she is going to die and her blood will be on your hands...LOOK AT HER GODDAMNIT!". With that he slapped the drink away from his hand and forced him to look at the terrified girl who was begging for her life. "Goddamnit Bantau DO SOMETHING!".

"Ah so it IS you i heard rumors you lived in this dirt town as a drunk now i can see the rumors are true, in this state you will be no match for me!" bellowed Grandar it was then Bantau got his first real look at the girl, he was shocked "She looks so much like her..." he thought and thats when the memories came flooding back to him, that was when he remembered what he had spent five years trying to forget. He remembered why he slaughtered hundreds of men at Enguard, why he willing gave his soul to Cali, the Goddess of war, why he chose the life of a berserker...

well thats all for now please if you read it leave me feedback on what is good what sucks and what you think i can do to improve

the guy code so fucking true

2006-10-08T07:25:46Z

1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella.

2: It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances:
(a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master.
(b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse.
(c) After wrecking your boss' car.
(d) One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The Crying Game".
(e) When she is using her teeth.

3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies.

4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours.

5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her.

6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.

7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly optional. At that point, you must celebrate at a strip bar of the birthday boy's choice.

8: On a road trip, the strongest bladder determines pit stops, not the weakest.

9: When stumbling upon other guys watching a sporting event, you may ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's playing.

10: You may flatulate in front of a woman only after you have brought her to climax. If you trap her head under the covers for the purpose of flatulent entertainment, she's officially your girlfriend.

11: It is permissible to drink a fruity alcohol drink only when you're sunning on a tropical beach ... and it's delivered by a topless model and only when it's free.

12: Only in situations of moral and/or physical peril are you allowed to kick another guy in the nuts.

13: Unless you're in prison, never fight naked.

14: Friends don't let friends wear Speedos. Ever. Issue closed.

15: If a man's fly is down, that's his problem, you didn't see anything.

16: Women who claim they "love to watch sports" must be treated as spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to drink as much as the other sports watchers.

17: A man in the company of a hot, suggestively dressed woman must remain sober enough to fight.

18: Never hesitate to reach for the last beer or the last slice of pizza, but not both, that's just greedy.

19: If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you'd better be talking about his choice of beer.

20: Never join your girlfriend or wife in discussing a friend of yours, except if she's withholding sex pending your response.

21: Phrases that may NOT be uttered to another man while lifting weights:
(a) Yeah, Baby, Push it!
(b) C'mon, give me one more! Harder!
(c) Another set and we can hit the showers!

22: Never talk to a man in a bathroom unless you are on equal footing: i.e. both urinating, both waiting in line, etc. For all other situations, an almost imperceptible nod is all the conversation you need.

23: Never allow a telephone conversation with a woman to go on longer than you are able to have sex with her. Keep a stopwatch by the phone. Hang up if necessary.

24: The morning after you and a girl who was formerly "just a friend" have carnal, drunken monkey sex, the fact that you're feeling weird and guilty is no reason for you not to nail each other again before the discussion about what a big mistake it was occurs.

25: It is acceptable for you to drive her car. It is not acceptable for her to drive yours.

26: Thou shalt not buy a car in the colors of brown, pink, lime green, orange or sky blue.

27: The girl who replies to the question "What do you want for Christmas?" with "If you loved me, you'd know what I want!" gets an Xbox. End of story.

28: There is no reason for guys to watch Ice Skating or Men's Gymnastics. Ever.

29: Pull out

We've all heard about people having guts or balls. But do you really know the difference between them? In an effort to keep you informed, the definition of each is listed below.

"GUTS" is arriving home late after a night out with the guys, being assaulted by your wife with a broom, and having the guts to say, "Are you still cleaning or are you flying somewhere?"

"BALLS" is coming home late after a night out with the guys smelling of perfume and beer, lipstick on your collar, slapping your wife on the ass and having the balls to say, "You're next!"

ever hear exactly the song you needed to here right when you needed to hear it?

2006-10-07T19:58:14Z

so im sitting here waiting to go to work listening to dragon force and the song "Once In A Lifetime" plays and everything became clear to me...

i need nothing but me to be happy, i am strong enough to do what i want i am the best i can be if that aint good enough the so be it but i dont need to be better or the best only me...

i can feel my power and confidance returning and i know now nothing can stop me i have stuff i need to do and i will do them...

1) clean my room
2) get my license
3) go back to school for carpentry

those are my priorities as of now and i plan to have number one done this week, 2 by the end of november at the LATEST and 3 will be next september...

i AM the Alpha Omega, the begining and the end, and i am complete i feel like me again and nothing will stop me

welcome back Bill ive missed you ;)

these are the lyrics to the song i know some parts seem negative but thats exactly the point streangth and determination in the face of adversity...

Dark clouds and thunderstorms in the fires and flames were born
Through darkness traveling on the night
Hellfires and rain will fall time is coming for us all
Our journey for the guiding light

Firelight it is burning so bright in the dark of the night
As we fight for the glory tonight there's nowhere to hide
On the wings of your destiny brings all the power you crave
Careful now if not you then who else will we save

Lost in this world a total stranger
Death by the sword a common danger
you know that everything is not what it seems
March on all night forever searching
Daylight ahead is only lurking
Break through the walls and use the power of your dreams

Ahhhhhhhh,Once in a lifetime take a chance at the right time the glory to see
Rise up for the time of your life
Now the time has come for you to be free

In the minds of society we all live in harmony
Truth is that we all die in vain
You stand for what you believe
I kill for what I conceive
Is there then a title for this game?

Far away in the wastelands of hell full of torment and pain
Demon knights riding over the heights where the fallen are slain
Violent fury of firestorming death now no life will prevail
Now you live all your days in the fires of hell

Lost in this world a total stranger
Death by the sword a common danger
You know that everything is not what it seems
March on all night forever searching
Daylight ahead is only lurking
Break through the walls and use the power of your dreams

Ahhhhhhhh,Once in a lifetime take a chance at the right time the glory to see
Rise up for the time of your life
Now the time has come for you to be free

Woahoooo (follows rythem of normal verse)
ooohh....

Firelight it is burning so bright in the dark of the night
As we fight for the glory tonight there's nowhere to hide
On the wings of your destiny brings all the power you crave
Careful now if not you then who else will we save

Lost in this world a total stranger
Death by the sword a common danger
you know that everything is not what it seems
March on all night forever searching
Daylight ahead is only lurking
Break through the walls and use the power of your dreams

Ahhhhhhhhh,Once in a lifetime take a chance at the right time the glory to see
Ahhhhhhhh,Once in a lifetime take a chance at the right time the glory to see
Rise up for the time of your life
Now the time has come for you,
Now the time has come for you,
Now the time has come for you to be free

the time has come for me to be free

lol

2006-10-06T05:23:35Z

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner.
For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.

You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.

Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.

You connect best with: Earth

Avoid: Fire

You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

lol avoid fire, julie was a fire type

time and the past

2006-10-06T05:09:20Z

before i start this post i want everyone to understand i mean this in no offense to anyone...

that said these are my thoughts from this evening...

my friends are both the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. ny whole life i had one goal, one dream, one desire. that was to finish high school and then take off to travel the world, to learn to grow strong and to be the worlds greatest fighter...

i was all set and read to go untill friends stepped in, they stopped me told me i was needed here that it wasnt possible for me to achieve this goal. i know in my heart i could have done it, but they stopped me.

i was told i was needed, that i had too much to do here so i couldnt leave, so i did something that i had aworn i would never do...i let them in.

thats right i finally decided to let down my guard and trust people to care about them and to let them care about me and i was happy. i dont regret staying and giving up what i felt was my path, my destiny, but what i gained was hard to deal with something i had never known before.

depandancy, i grew to depend on those i called friend, i needed them, i still do and it is that weekness i need to overcome i can not let my happiness be conditional to others being around. i need to learn to stand on my own and be strong both by myself and with others.

i dont know what that means or entails but all i know is that it is something i must do. i must learn to balance both parts of myself and make one better stronger person.

and it is something i must do alone, i need to rely only on my own streangth, my own constitution.

perhaps if i can achieve this balance i can finally give myself to love, perhaps in time it will allow me to love another. after much time aloone thinking it occurs to me that its not julie that has been holdiing me back it has been myself. she has just been an excuse a way for me to place blame and not deal with my own issues. it was subconsious and unitentional it was just a way for me to deal with these feelings without dealing with them. to pass them off and get vy them.

now i know i have to deal with these issues and i need to so it soon.

maybe that way i can shed these feelings and be complete.

thank you and goodnight

malduke @ 2006-10-04T03:06:00

2006-10-04T07:08:39Z

Can you feel the pain inside sometimes, in your mind?
In the land of loneliness the seas of blood run cold
Is the feeling lost inside within the sins of all mankind?
Time after time we stood united on we go...

Fly! - Far away don't let the world pass you by
Live! - For the day when we must stand and survive
Now we face the judgement day our souls will feel the pain
Hear the screams of my world through the rain

Silent fields of despair; my tears in the rain
Pain in my heart bleeding through
One day we'll be back for one moment in time
Endlessly searching for you...

Who can cure my emptiness inside for this time?
Suffering from loneliness, my dreams and hopes will die
No more feelings left inside my blackened heart I can not hide
Time after time, our souls divided on we cry

Fly! - Far away don't leave your own past behind
Live! - For the day another year passes by
Now we turn to face our fear there's nothing more to say
Still your dreams and my nightmares remain

Silent fields of despair my tears in the rain
Pain in my heart bleeding through
One day we'll be back for one moment in time
Endlessly searching for you...

[Musical Interlude]

Silent fields of despair my tears in the rain
Pain in my heart bleeding through
One day we'll be back for one moment in time
Endlessly searching for you...

Hoo oo oo oo
Hoo oo ah o
Hoo oo oh eh ooo
Hoo oo oo oo
Hoo oo ah o
Hoo oo oh eh ooo

boredom

2006-10-02T02:59:15Z

excessive ammounts of solitude and boredom...

i think the solitude is the worst part being alone is not good for me...

oh well working 6 am to 430 pm tomorrow might help...

might help kill me that is...kidding

lataa

lol

2006-09-30T00:10:36Z

You Are Wind

Strong and overpowering
A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you
You have the power to change everything around you

You are best known for: your wrath

Your dominant state: commanding

What Type of Weather Are You?

kinda fitting no?

this one goes out to myself

2006-09-26T17:26:51Z

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you